Valesse

The standard comments all apply- I've been busy, remembered a thing, posted on thing and now feel the need to explain why I neglected the thing.

Honestly I'm just trying to recuperate from a very rough summer and early autumn.
I'm feeling very drained socially despite desperately wanting to commit more to my social obligations but it seems as soon as I peek my head back into it something nasty drags me back out. I panic each time I talk to my peers because I desperately want them to understand that I'm not a dramatic person. I'm not making up having horrible situations crop up one after another after another. I've had friends who were habitual liars and I have absolutely no respect for that type of behavior... and the thought that someone might view me as one of 'those type people' is gut wrenching. It is getting to the point, however, that each time I feel suitably able to make some kind of return to normalcy another problem crops up and with so many iterations of this same pattern I'm keeping further and further away from what little social joy I had just to stop feeling like I'm letting everyone down by disappearing again.

I understand that life is not stability. That we all must face set backs... but I would appreciate it if 2014 would stop sucking so hard. I'm done with deaths, cancer scares, hospital visits, tumultuous relationships, illnesses, depression, emotional and verbal abuse. Art has become my therapy... more, rather, the focus of my escapism. I can focus on it completely and not have to worry about all the rest of the crap going on around me. Things I have no control over.

So, in short, if I have been absent it isn't because I WANT to be. I'm simply tired of feeling like I'm getting people's hopes up or starting to look like a liar/attention monger with how often this shit keeps cropping up. I'm basically pulling back until life is done taking it's massive dump before getting back into the swing of things once more.

Those exams aren't going to do themselves!

So bad about updating here.
I've been in England for over a month now, studying for my MA and whew! I'm glad I'm inside doing so much reading because it is SO VERY COLD outside.

Unfortunately doing so much reading cuts down on things like gaming and art, though I have (curiously) been updating more recently than I have for the last few months... probably because I can't even connect to most of my typical games (...by that I mean minecraft.) Boo. But more art -hopefully- will come out of it!

What I'd really like to do is start up a comic again, but I just know that as soon as I do there will be some massive project/dissertation, so I'll hold off.

Whew! Sorry about the silence everyone, but I've (again) been busy.
Busy doing what? Packing! Packing for school. School where? England!

I'm terrified, truly. I found out that my friend won't be attending the same university so I'll be off to another country to work myself stupid for a year aaaaaall by my lonesome. That said I do have a handful of English friends and the international office is quite friendly.

That said, I'm not sure what my schedule will be like for any artwork- pretty clearly I haven't had time to really make anything... especially not anything worthy of posting here.

Maybe someday.
Ta!

It's been a few weeks so I might as well update.
Funny enough, I haven't livestreamed much since I posted that I was going to be livestreaming- I have done a few, but more and more often I find that I'm equally excited to watch livestreams so if you have a stream and are looking for viewers please feel free to post the link and I'll do my best to visit. As they are very well aware, I've been frequenting 's streams for the last, oh, month and it's been a great deal of fun. I'm sorry to say that I won't be able to make tomorrow's, but I'm needed... outside. *shudder*

I finally organized my favorites into collections, however! So that's good. The umbrella folder is still a mess, which drives me batty, but at least there is some attempt at making my deviantART account looking like I notice things like that.

I keep wanting to start up a webcomic again. I should just revive an old one of mine, but I know it wouldn't work out. School is coming too quickly, and I simply won't have the time then. Ah well...