The standard comments all apply- I've been busy, remembered a thing, posted on thing and now feel the need to explain why I neglected the thing.
Honestly I'm just trying to recuperate from a very rough summer and early autumn.
I'm feeling very drained socially despite desperately wanting to commit more to my social obligations but it seems as soon as I peek my head back into it something nasty drags me back out. I panic each time I talk to my peers because I desperately want them to understand that I'm not a dramatic person. I'm not making up having horrible situations crop up one after another after another. I've had friends who were habitual liars and I have absolutely no respect for that type of behavior... and the thought that someone might view me as one of 'those type people' is gut wrenching. It is getting to the point, however, that each time I feel suitably able to make some kind of return to normalcy another problem crops up and with so many iterations of this same pattern I'm keeping further and further away from what little social joy I had just to stop feeling like I'm letting everyone down by disappearing again.
I understand that life is not stability. That we all must face set backs... but I would appreciate it if 2014 would stop sucking so hard. I'm done with deaths, cancer scares, hospital visits, tumultuous relationships, illnesses, depression, emotional and verbal abuse. Art has become my therapy... more, rather, the focus of my escapism. I can focus on it completely and not have to worry about all the rest of the crap going on around me. Things I have no control over.
So, in short, if I have been absent it isn't because I WANT to be. I'm simply tired of feeling like I'm getting people's hopes up or starting to look like a liar/attention monger with how often this shit keeps cropping up. I'm basically pulling back until life is done taking it's massive dump before getting back into the swing of things once more.