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Fanpro submission 'Sealife' theme by Valesse
Fanpro submission 'Sealife' theme
Working with the theme for this week...
The fin is vaguely based off of the back end of an anomalocaris
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Character art: Brom by Valesse
Character art: Brom
Fanpro 0454 AKA "Brom" in flats for ask0098
The plan is for me to do some lines for us to do a collaboration piece sometime but I have a few other pieces I need to get through before that.
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The standard comments all apply- I've been busy, remembered a thing, posted on thing and now feel the need to explain why I neglected the thing.

Honestly I'm just trying to recuperate from a very rough summer and early autumn.
I'm feeling very drained socially despite desperately wanting to commit more to my social obligations but it seems as soon as I peek my head back into it something nasty drags me back out. I panic each time I talk to my peers because I desperately want them to understand that I'm not a dramatic person. I'm not making up having horrible situations crop up one after another after another. I've had friends who were habitual liars and I have absolutely no respect for that type of behavior... and the thought that someone might view me as one of 'those type people' is gut wrenching. It is getting to the point, however, that each time I feel suitably able to make some kind of return to normalcy another problem crops up and with so many iterations of this same pattern I'm keeping further and further away from what little social joy I had just to stop feeling like I'm letting everyone down by disappearing again.

I understand that life is not stability. That we all must face set backs... but I would appreciate it if 2014 would stop sucking so hard. I'm done with deaths, cancer scares, hospital visits, tumultuous relationships, illnesses, depression, emotional and verbal abuse. Art has become my therapy... more, rather, the focus of my escapism. I can focus on it completely and not have to worry about all the rest of the crap going on around me. Things I have no control over.

So, in short, if I have been absent it isn't because I WANT to be. I'm simply tired of feeling like I'm getting people's hopes up or starting to look like a liar/attention monger with how often this shit keeps cropping up. I'm basically pulling back until life is done taking it's massive dump before getting back into the swing of things once more.
  • Mood: Gloomy
Fanpro 1145 by Valesse
Fanpro 1145
Just like Fanpro 1144 I submitted the lines for this piece because I did not have enough time to color it before the art was due in for submission and it failed to be selected for the "Goth/Punk" themed round. It was accepted last week (along with Fanpro 1144) with the pretty/shiny colors added.

Despite not having shading on it, this was still a learning piece for me... I don't 'do' mechanical art. It's strange and foreign and makes me feel all sorts of out of my element when I make the attempt at it but after a long while of struggling with it I did manage to finally wrangle out something decent for the mechanical design. I am extremely happy with her wing/arm link. LOOK AT IT. That's freaking awesome. I'm such a happy panda about those in particular.
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Fanpro 1144 by Valesse
Fanpro 1144
One I'm particularly fond of-- The lines for this image were what I submitted for my second attempt at a fanpro design but it was rejected. I had meant to color the piece as I did before the day the designs were due in but did not have enough time... I'm glad I tried submitting it again with the colors on. : )

I don't do many colored/shaded pieces for fanpro because, honestly, I'm still struggling to teach myself how to do both. For this piece I used selected gradient fields for a change of pace.
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The standard comments all apply- I've been busy, remembered a thing, posted on thing and now feel the need to explain why I neglected the thing.

Honestly I'm just trying to recuperate from a very rough summer and early autumn.
I'm feeling very drained socially despite desperately wanting to commit more to my social obligations but it seems as soon as I peek my head back into it something nasty drags me back out. I panic each time I talk to my peers because I desperately want them to understand that I'm not a dramatic person. I'm not making up having horrible situations crop up one after another after another. I've had friends who were habitual liars and I have absolutely no respect for that type of behavior... and the thought that someone might view me as one of 'those type people' is gut wrenching. It is getting to the point, however, that each time I feel suitably able to make some kind of return to normalcy another problem crops up and with so many iterations of this same pattern I'm keeping further and further away from what little social joy I had just to stop feeling like I'm letting everyone down by disappearing again.

I understand that life is not stability. That we all must face set backs... but I would appreciate it if 2014 would stop sucking so hard. I'm done with deaths, cancer scares, hospital visits, tumultuous relationships, illnesses, depression, emotional and verbal abuse. Art has become my therapy... more, rather, the focus of my escapism. I can focus on it completely and not have to worry about all the rest of the crap going on around me. Things I have no control over.

So, in short, if I have been absent it isn't because I WANT to be. I'm simply tired of feeling like I'm getting people's hopes up or starting to look like a liar/attention monger with how often this shit keeps cropping up. I'm basically pulling back until life is done taking it's massive dump before getting back into the swing of things once more.
  • Mood: Gloomy

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Narret Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2013
What what!? I'm stalking you now. :3
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CrestfallenWitch Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the watch! :)
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TheRoboRoach Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
why hello my sweet friend.
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nekokawai Featured By Owner May 14, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
Wondering how you are where your feet have taken you :3 hi again
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Valesse Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh, I've been here there and everywhere!
I just got back from England (I went without a camera-- well, what I had destroyed my pictures, so there isn't any evidence except for my word!) just two weeks ago from 4 weeks of camping and archaeology. I'm about to post a few drawings up, but I'm not sure about really returning to dA like I once was. There's just so much to do anymore!

How has your life been, Neko? Been busy? :3
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nekokawai Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
Not as busy as I'd like, going back to school and getting more work is good. I miss just being able to do personal art all day. Wow so what do you do now that you're back?
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msjunebaby Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2009
Thanks for the watch :ninja:
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KariLiimatainen Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
:thanks: so much for the fav´s !!!

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EmeraldSakura Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2008
<3 you! <3 our guild! <3 RP!
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